I’ve never felt so alone. I feel like such crap. Today was a shit day. Nobody cares though. That’s the worst part. It’s funny how you always thought people would be there, but they aren’t. Long talk with my mom tonight and I feel so empty. I just feel pathetic. Two weeks of school and I hope I don’t have to deal with feeling this way any more. I hope that helps.

I just want to say to you that what you said to me tonight, made me want to throw up. My stomach was in my throat and Idk why. You say shit that stings so bad and I wish you would just not say anything all.

Here come the tears. I’m going to sleep. Wake me up when I graduate.

Well I’ve been watching for a couple of seasons now. There is Grey, one of the female doctors and then there is Christina, another female doctor. They are best friends.
Christina is very to herself. She doesn’t like emotions, getting emotional, or even talking about her problems. Grey always has to yank it out of her. A lot of the time Grey will just be there for her to cry on, not talk, just cry.
Then there is Grey. She is very outspoken. She needs Christina to talk about their problems. She has to have her there. Grey and Christina actually disagree on a lot and will argue a lot, just like any one. They are so different, but that’s what makes them so close. In the show they have been through everything together. Love, death, cheaters, marriage, babies, abortions, everything life throws at you. But no matter what, they are always there for each other!

Any who, when I was watching the show one day, it reminded me of exactly what my best friend and I are like. We are very similar to these characters. It’s just refreshing. I know Danielle will always be in my life, no matter how different we are. Danny and I are actually a lot alike, but we have some differences, of course. It wS just interesting to see that on Greys Anatomy!

You just can’t always be what ya wanna be to people. Probably doesn’t make sense to you, but whatever. I just want to start a new life, somewhere… I wish my mom, dad, and I would just pick up and start a new adventure. I need something. This is killing me, little by little.

When did I become so weak. I used to be the strongest person I knew. It just brakes you down over time.

But I hope I get what I want in the end….